reflection of you

zhi ji de ying zhi dou xiang tao bi

stop

i honestly dont know whats wrong anymore.
i just dont know.
i've tried my best, but nothing works.
i've given up.
i've given up on myself.

try

everything will work out

that i'm sure

ECP-PIE-AYE-CTE-BKE

everyday i look forward to one thing.

midnight drives alone along the expressways with no destination in mind.

it relaxes the mind.

or thats what it does for me.

it's friday tomorrow, but somehow i ain't excited.

off to hit the roads. night world

jay !

somehow it's on repeat.

and i'm addicted to it.

Jay Chou's Cai hong

Ni yao li kai wo zhi dao hen jian dan
Ni shuo yi lai shi wo men de zu ai
Jiu suan fang kai dan neng bu neng bie mo shou wo de ai
Dang zuo wo zui hou cai ming bai

weirdo

230am
back from zouk.
it's not the same.
zouk somehow isn't how it is.
it does not feel like home.
i miss the past

at the end of the day

someone give me pain killers please.

oh wait.

sleeping pills would be a better choice.

the beer don't seem to work.

goodnight.

break free

i guess the only time i feel free from everything is when i take a drive at night alone.

somehow i feel at ease.

i feel free.

free from everything.

free from everyone.

queer

this feeling is something so new that i find it hard to decipher how i really feel.

have i lost it?

dumb

i think i'm just stupid.

fullstop.

on another note, my mum never fails to amuse me.

she just came into my room and said

"i get scared when i see you and your friends drink."

what am i suppose to reply??

on repeat

wo cong lai mei xiang guo
wo hui zhe yang zuo

cong lai mei ai guo

suo yi ai chuo

-currently on repeat-

-lee hom's ai chuo-

.Random

1.i'm addicted to GTA

2.i'm loving Ape Acadamy

3.disappointed,sad,feel like crying. too many emotions running through me.nothing goes according to plan.

4.alcohol intake has dropped drastically

5.i put on weight

6.i think my class rocks compared to the rest at AFS

7.my mentor has limited vocab.for example "what the fish","alright man","oh man"

8.i feel like i don't know who i am anymore.

9.i miss grandpa alot.

10.i miss xxxxxxxxxx too

help me

tell me its going to get better as each day passes.

give me some hope.

give me something to hold on too.

they mean the world to me.

the reason why the children in my house are always safe.

meet trigger the bodyguard.

4month old shar pei ... NOEL
cousins new dog. his fucking cute !

spot the imposter !

spike can't seem to keep still in his new shirt.

get to know you session

i was gonna kidnap him but i got caught.

-will it every change?-

-no one knows-

what a feeling.

There's an unknown sensation passing through my body.

The feeling of doubt and insecurity.

I think my mind and body wants to shut down

For as long as possible without f*cking up my life.

I want to stand in the rain and cry my heart out.

it's all over me

i cannot take this feeling.

it's time to hide.

goodbye world.

real life fantasy

Something in your eyes, that makes me wanna lose myself.

Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms.

There's something in your voice, that makes my heart beat fast.

Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been.

And how long I've been so alone

And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along

And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street

And a siren wails in the night

But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me

And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me

And how long I've waited for your touch

And if you knew how happy you are making me

I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

- Chantal Kreviazuk

random thoughts

I walk alone right from the start

I found a way to believe in my life

My future is coming in series of lights

My disillutions are so far behind

.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

-i want a SHAR PEI !-

-it's payday in 4hours-

-bangkok trip in 1months time is gonna be a blast-

-i'm hungry-

-i'm going to mambo tonight even though i've got 2papers to sit for tomorrow-

-i broke my atm card-

-i just drank coke-

-i'm feeling restless-

-i need to save money-

-i need to get a car-

-i want a place of my own-

-i got 2summons for speeding in a day-

-my ex-poly classmates are my juniors in camp- *weird feeling*-

-back to my revision-

i'm lovin it

Wo ai ni ni shi wo de zhu li ye

Wo yuan yi bian cheng ni de liang shan bo

Xing fu de mei yi tian, lang man de mei yi ye

Ba ai yong yuan bu fang kai I love you

-current love-

mambo tomorrow !!!

beyond exhausted

days like these when i'm stressed out with work.

i wish i had someone to turn to.

someone who can make it all better, with a smile or hug.

hopefully i find that someone soon.

because it's always nice to know, that when your down and out..

there's someone there for you.

-this week is definately going to kill me-

body of conflict

When I'm lost, can't find my way

You're the light that leads to harbour

When I'm crushed, can't find my strength

You are all elements of life

Giving my skin so warm so tender

Giving me deeper sense of belief

All I know all there is, a reflection of you

A home to this body of conflict

Deep into my love

Deep into my heart

Deep into surrender

ni jiu shi wo de wei yi

i don't know why.

but somehow, listening to chinese songs kinda relaxes me.

but it also makes me feel a little....

sad i guess.

another extra duty for me next week.

don't ask why.

how low can it go.

My heart just sank to another level.

will it ever reach the bottom?

not for sale

every christmas he changes his outfit.