old skool !

yzoht frorm my younger days.
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sometimes when you think back, you'd realize that all these doesn't amount to anything much.

empty

i've got nothing left to give.

i'm sorry

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I haven't exactly found the energy to blog.

Life's just...going ahead.

I've lost the energy to battle.

I've lost the taste for fighting.

I'm that tired out.

I've aged more in the past month than I have in the past 2 years.

I've shouldered far more than I'm supposed to.

It's 5 more days till the dreaded paper and I've yet to cover all 13topics.

i just want and need someone to tell me that it's okay..

.

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So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in

I'm yours to keep

And hold onto your words

Cuz talk is cheap

And remember me tonight

When your asleep

electric dreams

was going through the documents in my computer and i chanced upon some stuff which evoked many happy memories. decided to delete them for some reason, not before i read them for one last time.

been having really weird dreams the past few nights, it's almost like it really happened. going to find out what those dreams means later on.

up and downs

today was a rollercoaster ride
good and bad news were reported
happy?
sad?
anger?
confusion?
i don't know what to say

over spending !!!!

i just realised something.

i've blown too much cash this week on alcohol already.

and i've got 1month more till payday.

brilliant.

ah ma i love you !

this is the only festive season i detest.

the only thing i look forward too during this period is to see my granny.

because she's the only one who really cares.

sitting beside her just now made me recall the times when she was looking after me when i was young.

and that brought a smile to my face.

eventhough we hardly see each other, whenever we meet she'll always greet me with a smile, which i will never forget.

thank you for everything you've done for me.

i love you ah ma.

plastic

Just coz im smiling, doesnt mean im happy

it hurts. bad.

2days of pain and i could not take it any longer.

went to see the doctor this morning and he suggested going for an x-ray.

i said no to that for some reason and suggested some painkilers instead.

maybe i'm afraid to find out whats wrong.

maybe i'm afraid of the truth?

same but different

if only....

goodnight.