yucks !

i am loving my mess long long time !!!

i still taste beer after last nights session

lost and found

i'm enjoying my job, my life in the airforce.
but i'm still missing something in my life.
somehow i feel incomplete.
i can say i'm happy with what i am, with what i have.
but i'm still incomplete.
this week has opened up my eyes to many things.
work's been good, my colleagues are a hell of a bunch to hang out with, my superiors are fantastic esp Uncle Ben, my foreign coursemates are really helpful especially with the vast experience they have working on aircrafts but one event has made me humble myself in a sense that i should learn to appreciate things in life, be it small or big.
wednesday marked the first military funeral i have participated in.
sending off a fellow colleague, who passed away at 20.
20 mind you.
trust me, the emotions running through everyone that day was unbelieveable. we had to hold back our emotions, we had to fullfill the family's wishes, which was to give their son, a full military funeral.
seeing the pain his parents and relatives going through, i just could not help but remember my late grandfather and the emotions i had on his funeral.
i guess we did our job and his family was really grateful.
rest in peace ricky.

who am i

i need a break.
from everything.
from everyone.
because....i've lost myself

reached my limit

i think i'm done with partying.
i think i'm done with anything and everything associated with partying, drinking included.
i'm going to try giving up smoking.
been overspending recently.
bad bad idea.
i think i've come to a point whereby i'm sick of clubbing.

more drinks tonight

i feel like shit....
major hangover.....
i don't even remember what happen last night...
i know i drank beer in camp, chivas at lookers than i headed to plush.
afterwhich i got no idea what happened.
fuck fuck fuck....
memory lapse......
i just saw the receipts !!!!
THE CARD IS EVIL !!!!!
alright have a nice one people....

hectic

this week is like super duper packed with activites.
3nights of dinner....
one day of packing up the room for renovations....
2days of shopping for furnitures and what nots to fit inside the room...
bank applications to complete......
worst thing.....preparations for stay in.....
i hope all the cigarettes and redbull can give me enough energy...

bad day

bad bad day at work.....
don't wish to elaborate any further.
tomorrow's going to be awesome....
i can feel it....

needles !!!

ji've always liked old school tattoo designs and have planned to collect a few. because my mum has played a big part in my life, i've decided to dedicate one of them to her. and i'm like so excited to get it done like asap. hopefully the latest by next weekend. knowing my mum she'll scold me for doing it but hey, it's something i'll cherish for life.

healthy living

i need to stay off alcohol for awhile...

cigarettes too....

help !@!!

renovating a room can really make you go crazy.

trust me.....

Shopping list keeps getting longer....

Total cost keeps rising.....

My bank account is fast depleting....

I hope when i wake up tomorrow i find a million dollars under my bed...

Updates later.

shit

i just realise....

i've been spending way way too much on alcohol.....

i just checked my statement and holy shit i spent **** the past 2months on alcohol...

madness....

gonna throw my cards away....

need to start saving.....

looks like the car wont be coming anytime soon...

have a great weekend my loves

behind blue eyes

i guess seeing is believing.

no point hearing stories.

i've got to face the reality.

one way or another.

theres so much running one can do.

family affair

just so happens my com started playing a thai song and my mom hears it.
she quickly says "don't tell me you go to goldenmile, i'll get gastric".
followed by "quite catchy huh the song"
i started laughing non-stop when i heard it.
maybe i should organise a family trip to geographer.
been a long time since we went out for drinks.