happy new year

I guess 2007 has been an enjoyable one.

Got my driving license.

Graduated from Ngee Ann.

Met many new faces,got reaquainted with a handful of old faces.

Enlisted into NS, got the job i wanted in the airforce.

Got in and out of a relationship with a wonderful girl.

Partied, drank and smoked way more than i did in 06.

All in all, it was a good year.

A few rough patches might have slowed me down, but always look on the bright side of life right.

Hopefully you guys have a great year ahead.

Lost of love

sabai?

Goodnight world.

I'm going into hibernation.

Nana's a nice club, it's the former PLUSH.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry for being such a letdown.

I'm sorry for making you feel disappointed with me the past few days.

I'm sorry if I have hurt you in anyway.

I'm just sorry.

I wish you could understand why I did it.

I'm sorry mum.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!

Hope everyone has a good time enjoying christmas with their love ones.

Lots of love, Shaun, Trigger and Spike

what do i say?

i couldn't bear to break his heart.

i didn't dare to tell the truth.

did i lead him on?

today at the home, i was presented with a tough situation.

i feel damn shitty for some reason.

shall share the story tomorrow.

goodnight world.

sicko

i feel like puking.
i've got no appetite for dinner.
i am felling sick for some reason.
the dogs smell nice thanks to their shower this morning.
i've got like countless lighters on my table.
what a random entry.
goodbye.

i need rest

super exhausted.

past 3days has been crazy.

both mentally and physically draining.

my liver and lungs need a break.

last night's drinking session in camp was madness.

i think i heard my liver scream for help.

would you?

if you could turn back time and go back to how it used to be,

knowing full well whats going to happen in the end.

would you?

i would.

imu

it's just 10 days till christmas.

the most wonderful time of the year.

the only thing i want for christmas,

is peace of mind & heart.

the only place i've loved.

works getting tough.
somehow it seems to kick up a notch every minute.
somehow it feels like i'm falling way behind the rest.
and no matter how hard i try, i still feel like i'm last.
life really ain't a bed of roses.
everything seems to get more difficult.
i just wish i was a child again.
---------------------------------------------------
home now feels so lifeless.
i miss my parents alot even though i hardly tell them so.
i miss grandma too.
and most of all i miss ......
i can't help but feel all alone nowadays.
even with my fantastic family and friends, i feel really lost.
my life just revolves around two things now.
work and alcohol.
i'm serious.
i try to forget and remember many things along the way,
but its hard. really hard.
i will i could just fly away to a quiet beach and just forget everything.
but reality does not allow me to do so. not for now.
so the only option i have.
is to seek refuge in alcohol.
gooodbye world.

so you like dogs?

feels weird not having the dogs around during work.
somehow when i'm stressed out from all the studying, i just wanna hug them.
oh well.....
you can't have everything in life......
or can you?

alcoholic no more

i wanna hear, i wanna feel....

like i'm close to something real....

Zoukout was amazing all thanks to ARMIN !!

I guess last night proved something....

I've finally given up on alcohol....

2cups of chivas greentea and 4glasses of beer....thats all i had...

renovations finally completed.

time for my furnitures to come !!!!

have a good week ahead...

stupidity

i've never felt so many emotions in a night.

from down low to up high.

it felt as though i was in a washing machine, just spinning around.

not knowing whats happening.

the next thing i knew, i reached home at 7am.

if my life is going to carry on being all lost, drunk and what shit.

i suggest someone just pull the plug on me.

rock bottom

i have a million things on my mind.

i wanted to write it all down, but i just can't type it out.

i'm feeling like shit, like seriously rock bottom.

came home last night fucking high and i just sat outside my place smoking till 6.

didn't feel like going home.

didn't feel like sleeping.

because i'm afraid of dreaming.