the only place i've loved.

works getting tough.
somehow it seems to kick up a notch every minute.
somehow it feels like i'm falling way behind the rest.
and no matter how hard i try, i still feel like i'm last.
life really ain't a bed of roses.
everything seems to get more difficult.
i just wish i was a child again.
---------------------------------------------------
home now feels so lifeless.
i miss my parents alot even though i hardly tell them so.
i miss grandma too.
and most of all i miss ......
i can't help but feel all alone nowadays.
even with my fantastic family and friends, i feel really lost.
my life just revolves around two things now.
work and alcohol.
i'm serious.
i try to forget and remember many things along the way,
but its hard. really hard.
i will i could just fly away to a quiet beach and just forget everything.
but reality does not allow me to do so. not for now.
so the only option i have.
is to seek refuge in alcohol.
gooodbye world.