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7days and counting.

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zen

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close your eyes
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relax
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listen to this song
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get the story?
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big 20

Countdown

12days

Can't wait

i will not make the same mistakes which i have done

i will not let myself do it ever again

i've caused my heart so much misery

and now i'm forced to fake

a smile, a laugh everyday of my life

i've learned the hard way

to never let it get that far

how random can people get ?

Everything's so blurry

And everyone's so fake

And everybody's empty

And everything is so messed up

I try to say goodbye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

i hope it's not too late

Can’t I steal your heart tonight?

no more worries

EM3B CCT was a total flop; chances are I’m going to score a big fat zero for it which means there goes 15% down the drain. Looks like I’ve just increased my chances of repeating modules this semester. I’ve got this gut feeling, that sick intuition that I going to be retaking more than 2 modules. Call it paranoia or whatever; I think it’s really going to happen. School just seems so far down my list of priorities, what the hell it’s not even on it as a matter of fact. The only thing I’ve been interested in has been clubbing and nothing else. Someone just shoot me please. Before you guys decide to shoot me, anyone for MOS tonight? hahahaha

because of you i'll never stray too far from the sidewalk

I think I chanced upon something which I was not supposed too.
Honest feelings from the heart.
Now I feel really bad, not for reading it.
But for the way I acted
All I can do is pray that she’s found someone better
Someone whom will treat her like she deserves
All the best

Ladies night was awesome, except for my short emo period which lasted for an entire 10minutes. It felt so surreal, as though she was standing right there, in the middle of the dancefloor waiting for me to initial a dance with her. Her long hair just falling down from her head like silk tread, her eyes ever so mesmerizing, that mega watt smile she had which will put all models to shame. But it all ended when the alcohol effect subsided.

moderation?

I think I need time to just sit back and relax with a few bottles of chilled beer, a pack of cigarettes and a bag of potato chips, Lays original to be precise. Why you might ask do I need to relax when I’m already enjoying my weekends in clubs ever so often, ok every weekend if you people want to be calculative? Well I guess I just feel that I’ve not gotten my priorities right so far and I’m just wasting my time partying away and not to mention my money. Some of you might be saying that I’m a dumbass for taking so long to realize that fact but isn’t life all about living it to the fullest?

To a certain extent I would say yes. But I also believe in moderation and that’s what I need to work on. Furthermore I need to strike a balance between work and play because realistically, I far behind my peers when studies is concerned. Stop comparing me with the mediocre students, no offence to my friends who might be a little sensitive but compare me with the top students and see where I stand beside them. Yes, no where near I dare say. Now you see my point, I hardly exercise my full potential in school at all. Achieving mediocre grades and being satisfied with them has been my habit since the start of my tertiary education. Is that what I really want, to be a mediocre person all my life?

i swear after this song

Stop asking me what’s happening between me and her, can you people just stop asking. Fucking irritating can! Worst still is when you people don’t believe the rationale behind my explanation and continue to ask stupid questions and make dumbass assumptions. I’ve had enough I tell you, don’t push your luck too far, that’s all I got to say. It’s going to be plain boring these coming weeks I can sense, exams are slowly creeping up on me and chances are I’ll be ambushed by them which will result in horrible consequences. Fuck I swear school is starting to bore me to death, somehow I’ve lost interest in studying. Maybe I need a wake up call, something to fucking slap me real hard so as to wake the living daylights out of me. Screw it I’ve totally forgotten what I intended to blog about.

Just for you prick

I'm bigger than that.

I shall not stoop to the level that you operate at.

People like you are a pest to society.

Do everyone a favor and kill yourself.

The good shall prevail.

The evil shall pay.